12/5/11 - PM

I didn't have to work today and it was really nice! I actually FELT like I had a day off! :)

I went to write yesterday, but then I felt so ashamed at how I had spent my day obsessed with food and cooking, I didn't want to write. I love to cook. I love to try new recipes. I love to not only cook it, but to eat it. I guess when it comes down to it, I didn't gorge myself, but once again, I didn't eat the right things. I did take my medicine, but I didn't test.

Today I woke up with my sugars at 254. I haven't tested all day. In an attempt not to repeat yesterday, I have spent most of my day away from home. The hazard in that is that I spend money. It was a fun day with my daughter!

I was supposed to go meet with a nutritionist today, but I got a call first thing this morning and they asked to reschedule. My problem with that is that I won't be able to take off any more time from work this year and so it will have to wait until next year. I guess the insurance company has an issue with letting me meet with the nutritionist AND the diabetes specialist on the same day and so I can't just take a day off and do both in January. So, it will be a matter of seeing one in January and one in February. I guess it is ok because then I can start exercising and see what I can do on my own before I meet with either one of them.

Emotionally I am feeling fine. It is amazing that the mixture of the vitamins seems to be having the same effect on me that the low dose anti-depressant pill did that I took after I had my baby. Who knew?! I am thinking I am going to get my husband to try it also.

So, no real successes today, or yesterday. Just the same ol pretending that I don't have a problem. I did hook up the WII finally. I guess that can count as a success because I actually did it yesterday and I am going to do it tonight as well. :)

Later....