12/1/11

December is here! :)

Test this morning was 232. I didn't eat well for dinner again. I am finding that the evening is the hardest for me. I think I should try more crock pot meals so that dinner is ready when I get home. Last night I was feeling ok, but I got home and was tired and didn't want to cook and so we went out to dinner and I got a burrito and drank water, but the burrito was double the size that I should have eaten.

I have an appointment with a nutritionist on Monday. I am looking forward to this because I have a hard time guessing (and I am really guessing) how many carbs are in some pre-made foods (like the burrito I had last night), or foods that I make at home. For example, I made that taco soup and I don't know how to calculate how many carbs are in a serving, or even how big a serving should be. I guess I could calculate the carbs on everything I put in, and then divide the total by how many carbs I should have and measure it as such.

My numbers yesterday still ran pretty high. The doctor had me bump up my Lantus to 86 units/day and lowering my Humalog to a ratio of 1:4. This means that for each 4 carbs, I take 1 unit of insulin and then I also increase it by a certain amount based on what I test right before I eat. I know this is going to have to be adjusted, but she has requested I don't adjust it without contacting her first and so I am going to gather my numbers today and then email her to have it adjusted because I know the current dose isn't going to work.

Emotionally, I am still feeling pretty good. I am still frustrated with some things, but I don't feel like slamming doors etc.

I have been thinking a lot about my food. I am hungry all the time and so I am eating more and this worries me for calories. I try to make my snacks lower in calories, but I feel like the low calorie, low carb foods don't keep me full. I weighed in at 210 again today and so I have not gained any weight, but it is still always a concern. I don't want to have good sugars and be starving and sick all the time, but I don't want to have bad sugars and feel ok (for now).

So here's to another day. I will be having taco soup again for lunch, eggs for breakfast (I am thinking of throwing in a bowl of oatmeal with some boiled eggs in an attempt to not be starving by 10am) and then for dinner we will have something takeout because we have to go pick up my step son and take him to basketball practice right after work and so we wont have time to come home and cook. I hesitate getting salads at fast food places now because the last few I have gotten had soggy patches in them. ew! And so maybe I should to go the store during lunch and get something to put together instead of getting fast food....

Have a great day!