11/17/11 - New Day

So today I have woken up with the thoughts of yesterday was crappy, but today is a new day. I didn't work out :( and when I crawled in bed to watch Survivor (what a show to watch with how yesterday went! ha!) anyway......I crawled into bed and there on my husband's night stand is an open package of fudge covered Ritz! Oh, I polished that off in about 2 seconds! Funny thing is that I even took the time to count them so that I knew how many to report on here! 12! hahaha! What a dork I can be!

When I wrote last night, I forgot that one of the feelings that I had when I went to lunch was that of "I am tired of being hungry. I just want a full belly". So, when I was deciding what to eat, I chose Arby's because I could get the "Big" sandwich and what makes it big is meat! My problem was the fries, the bun and the shake. At least at dinner last night, I got chicken fajitas and so now I have 2 fajitas for lunch today. :)

I am noticing while writing today that I am very good at finding what I did wrong. Now, if I can only get to the point where I just don't do it! Because, quite honestly, I know what I am doing wrong before I even do it! Ugh! The story of my life.....

I saw a comment on here from my Mom saying that I am her hero. I am not sure how because she is who raised me and so I am just a product of her! So, in a sense, she is saying that SHE is her hero! haha Mom! She too struggles with diabetes and I am in awe of her and how she has lost weight and is able to keep her sugars down with very little medicine. I know that because I have destroyed my body so much, I will never get to that point, but she inspires me to be able to at least get things under control. Thanks Mom! I love you!

My sisters have also commented. They too inspire me! My older sister whom I respect more than she will ever know, and my little sister who has just been through the hardest year that I think any of the siblings in my family have and did it with flying colors! I love and respect all of my siblings in different ways and I have been soooo blessed with such a great family! I can't leave out my Father.....We have had our struggles, but the past few years I can say that they are far behind us and I respect him more now than ever. He too is such an example to me!

When I started this, I had decided that I was going to keep my comments strictly to my body and diabetes, but I felt that the above comments were needed to show that I have a great support system with my family. I wish I had a better support system in my own home, but I feel inspired to do better with my family all around me. I know they will never let me down and will always be there for me whenever and however I need them. I love you all!!!!

Now, I don't have my morning numbers because I left my meter out in the car. I knew I would because I put it in the arm rest so that no one thought it was a wallet and would break into my car and of course that meant it wasn't in my face and I forgot it. I will test when I get to work and it has thawed out a little from being out in the cold. I have been testing so much that I am going to have my doctor call in a new prescription with more strips. They said the insurance will only cover 2 tests a day, but I am going to have them call in 5 times a day and see what happens.

We may be switching insurance now that it is open enrollment and everyone is changing and rates are going up again. We may be stuck with my insurance because it is the cheapest and that means that we pay thousands of dollars in premiums and then the first $4K of cost comes out of our pocket anyway. What a joke, but it is better than nothing I guess. The insurance we have right now is moving to the same kind of plan I think and so which ever one has the lower amount out of our pocket will be the one we go with.

I also have an appointment with a new doctor in 2 weeks. It is a little odd how it came about. My boss at work said she was seeing an endocrinologist and likes him. She gave me his name and it is one I run across a lot, but have never called. So I called and he is not seeing diabetics anymore and I was referred to their diabetes section and will be seeing the medical director. Apparently, I had an appointment set with her a year ago, but because I had just started a new job and wasn't comfortable taking the time off, I cancelled the appointment. So, I am seeing her this year and I won't cancel. :) One good thing about my insurance through my job is that if you go in for a "well" visit instead of a "sick" visit, it is covered 100% with no co-pay. I signed up last year because the employee has no premium and I figured this way, if my husband quit and we didn't have insurance as a family, I would at least still be covered. So, I am seeing this doctor under my insurance at my work and so it will cost me nothing! :) I like that! So, we will see how it goes with her.

Well, I need to go get my daughter ready and get breakfast together. Here is to another day! I am feeling inspired again. Maybe writing in the morning inspires me for the day? Food for thought....

Have a great one!