11/16/11 - losing steam

So, I am already losing steam. I woke up feeling a bit depressed. I tested 224 and I ate a healthy breakfast, but finished my daughter's when she didn't and so I ate too much. I tested 154 two hours after breakfast.

At lunch, I was feeling really down and so I got Arby's for lunch. I got a shake for my drink. I ate all of my curly fries and the whole sandwich. Then, 1/2 way through my shake, I threw the rest away. I haven't tested my sugars since. We went to Chili's tonight in an attempt to talk about the meeting we had just had about my step son. This has been a very stressful situation and we usually go eat out after so that we can discuss the meetings. I ate 1/2 of the huge plate of chips, 3 fried cheese sticks and 1 of my 3 chicken fajitas. I drank water.

I was feeling really wiped out today also. My head was spinning a lot and at one point it was hard to focus on anything. I felt like my eyes were going to roll into the back of my head.

I am not feeling like working out. Last night while I worked out, the machine sounded like it was going to die under my weight. I am just feeling very down. It is getting late and so I am just going to go to bed and skip the workout.

I did have one success today. We had our weekly team meeting at work which someone always brings treats. Today they had those big, fluffy, melt in your mouth sugar cookies. I walked out before they even opened the box so that I couldn't smell them. I was proud of myself because I LOVE THOSE COOKIES!

My goal is to post here on a daily basis. In the morning or at night, I don't really care. Just as long as I do it. Good or bad.

Good night.