So yesterday was just an ok day. I ate all of the food that I had taken to work and having snacks was great! I only get a 1/2 hour lunch and so I don't really like taking my lunch because I like to get away from the building. When it is warmer, I can go outside and sit at the tables, but for now, I just eat at my desk. But, it was nice to have my food ready.
When I got home, I wasn't so good. I planned to make fish, rice and beans, but I ended up making pasta salad with chicken. That in itself wasn't as bad, but I used ranch dressing for the sauce. I made that because my husband had eaten 1/2 of a container of rice pudding when we walked in the door and said that it was his dinner. In my anger, I decided that I needed to make something that my daughter would eat that he wouldn't. So, I made the pasta salad because in the past he hasn't liked this salad because I put veggies in it. It is my sneaky way to get my daughter to eat them. But it was nice that I wasn't famished when I came home and so I didn't feel the "need" to eat while I was cooking. I was, however, so angry that I did dip into the candy bowl (that is going away today).
I tested my sugars a couple of times yesterday and they were in the 200's except for once was 189. I am convinced it is the lack of exercise. My sugars this morning are 254. Because I didn't exercise last night, I am not expecting my sugars to be very good today, but I want to make sure they stay under 250. That is what I feel is "realistic".
I also keep forgetting to mention that last week I lost 3 lbs! I was happy to see that! But, I am feeling as though I have gained them back already.
Emotionally, today I am feeling sad and frustrated. I had a very odd dream where I was away from home and my cell phone had died and I was having a hard time getting back home. It had started in the late afternoon and by the time I woke up, it was early morning, 8am-ish. I was still trying to get home and knew that my husband was going to be livid! I was also worried about my daughter. Weird dream.....Anyway, I am feeling like today will just be a day of going through the motions and doing what needs to be done. Lately I don't feel excitement over much. I am looking forward Thanksgiving and to decorating for Christmas on Friday and starting some tradition that day.
Have a good day! :)
This is my outlet of dealing with my diabetes. I was born in 1973 and although I am sure I had it for years, I was diagnosed in 1998 with type 2 diabetes. I have never had control (other than the 9 months I was pregnant). I have neuropothy in my feet and can no longer feel them. I am also seeing that my body is breaking down faster and I feel like I am 80 some days. So, I am trying to change things out of fear and this is my blog about it.
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