Last night I worked out for 20 minutes. I took my medicine and then I went and watched some TV. I had put some meat loaf in the oven for Monday and when I went to take it out, I just had to have some. So, I had some meat loaf and a very LARGE glass of Coke to finish it off. I should have just poured the Coke down the sink.
I didn't sleep well last night. It was hot. The heater was off and the only other option would have been to open the window. I didn't do this because I didn't want to freeze my husband. So, I just suffered through it. I got up at 2am to get a drink of water and figured I would test my sugars while up. They were 314. I knew at that point that they wouldn't be good when I got up for the day and sure enough, they were 266. I am going to take some extra short acting insulin this morning with breakfast and I am going too keep all carbs out of breakfast. Eggs only.
I go to work today and so it will be easy to stay out of the fridge. I am going to take celery, carrots, peanut butter and cheese sticks for snacks and a ham sandwich, cottage cheese and a pomegranate for lunch.
In an attempt to make my medicine taking faster (because I have more bottles now with the new vitamins), I got a pill organizer. I now am taking 8 pills at night (between meds and vitamins) and so rather than stand and go through each bottle every night, I just need to grab them out of the organizer and take them. So when I am feeling lazy, I won't have as big of an issue. Yes, believe it or not, I feel so lazy some nights that I don't want to "bother" with my medicine. Dumb.
I have a doctor appointment tomorrow with a new doctor. I hope that she is able to give me some direction. I usually go in and am told the same things that I already know. If anything, she can give me a re-fill on my prescriptions. I am hopeful because she is the medical director of this particular diabetes clinic. I think that they should be more up to date on what is available than my general doctor would be.
Well, emotionally I am feeling stressed today. I am still angry from a fight last night with my husband. I am trying to fight the urge to eat poorly now that I know that my anger is a trigger for me. I want to just say that I don't care and "I will show him!", but the only people I am hurting are myself and my daughter. He wouldn't even notice. So, I am trying to fight that mind set and become selfish when it comes to him. I am also hoping that the new mixture of vitamins will help me to calm down and not get soooo angry about things. I am realizing how messed up my mind is when it comes to eating. I knew it was messed up, but there are more avenues of messed up that are coming out with this.
I need to end this so that I have time to cook my breakfast. Have a good day!
This is my outlet of dealing with my diabetes. I was born in 1973 and although I am sure I had it for years, I was diagnosed in 1998 with type 2 diabetes. I have never had control (other than the 9 months I was pregnant). I have neuropothy in my feet and can no longer feel them. I am also seeing that my body is breaking down faster and I feel like I am 80 some days. So, I am trying to change things out of fear and this is my blog about it.
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