11/29/11-AM

So last night I didn't exercise and I over ate. I was feeling frustrated and sad and was having a bit of a pity party. I ate well during the day and ate only what I had taken to work to eat. I even passed up a container of chocolates in the break room. It was when I got home that I fell off the bandwagon. I made taco soup for dinner and it was really good, but I had a big roll with it. I also ate 10 pieces of candy while I was cooking. I wasn't hungry, I just didn't want to care.

This morning I am feeling better and should have a better day. I am having eggs for breakfast, cottage cheese for a snack, taco soup for lunch, and fondu for dinner. I am going to have veggies, some meat and some bread for dipping, but I am going to try and stay away from the bread and not dip everything that I eat.

Yesterday my husband said that he was giving a one week notice at the job that our insurance is through. I wanted to cry. This would mean that I would lose any means of getting my medicines because I can't afford to pay for the first $4000 of my medicines. I then came home and talked him into keeping the job for the sake of the insurance. He is reluctantly doing it. I don't like him working so many hours with two jobs, but we need the insurance until we can afford to pay the first $4000. I hate these high deductible plans!

I have my doctor appointment today. I know it will go just fine, but I hope that she is able to help me tweak what I am doing in a way to help make it easier. I know that I will never get out of the exercise portion, but maybe she can at least help with the medicine portion. I hope to one day be able to get on a pump, but that will cost $1500 out of pocket with the insurance we currently have. I guess if we end up on the other insurance, it would be one way to reach the $4000 deductible. The only way I could do it would be to put it on a credit card though and I don't want to do that.

Have a good day!