So last night I once again over ate. I went to bed at 8:30 and then woke up at midnight sick. I ate 4 Oreo cookies on top of eating a big piece of meat loaf and two slices of a quiche. I also had some rotisserie chicken and 1 large bell pepper. This was over a 3 hour period, but it was still way too much.
I was extremely stressed out last night. I am still stressed out over the same issue this morning, but I am going to be at work and so I should do better during the day. I need to come up with a plan for tonight so that there isn't a repeat of last night.
Physically I am still feeling a little sick. I was proud of myself that I got up and did 30 minutes on the elliptical this morning and situps. I have my "workout" that I was supposed to do, but I needed a mindless workout this morning.
Emotionally I am feeling tired, sad and anxious. I put a lot out there yesterday and nothing was really resolved. I hope that today will be more productive. A storm is brewing and I am bracing for it, but anticipation is worse than the actual storm and so I am hoping that it comes in gently and goes out gently.
So this morning, I am starting over again. It's a new day and I plan to use it well and have good sugars. My sugars tested the highest yesterday at 149. I still need to do better than that. I will be sending my sugars to my doctor today and they will probably raise the dose of insulin again.
This is my outlet of dealing with my diabetes. I was born in 1973 and although I am sure I had it for years, I was diagnosed in 1998 with type 2 diabetes. I have never had control (other than the 9 months I was pregnant). I have neuropothy in my feet and can no longer feel them. I am also seeing that my body is breaking down faster and I feel like I am 80 some days. So, I am trying to change things out of fear and this is my blog about it.
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